i didn't always used to be like this...

days since getting sick: 44.

wow, apparently a lot more people read my blog than i thought, because i had several people get in contact with me regarding my recent entries, and specifically my entry from last night. people are saying i've been acting different lately, and that they're worried about me.

if you're one of those people, i'm sorry for worrying you. i'm just under a lot of stress right now, primarily school-wise (this is the week of midterm hell) but also emotional as well...

but like the title of this entry says, i didn't always used to be like this. and you know what? i won't always be like this either.

i took some advice from my dad today, on friends and friendships. i know i'm not supposed to do this, but i'm already a happier person for having done so.

plus, i still have my faith that everything will turn out all right.

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when you try your best, but you don't succeed
when you get what you want, but not what you need
when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
stuck in reverse

and the tears come streaming down your face
when you lose something you can't replace
when you love someone, but it goes to waste
could it be worse?

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

and high up above or down below
when you're too in love to let it go
but if you never try you'll never know
just what you're worth

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you

tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
tears stream down your face
and i...

tears stream down on your face
i promise you i will learn from my mistakes
tears stream down your face
and i...

lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
and i will try to fix you.