another post from my blackberry

days since getting sick: 18.

well, i didn't go to nyc this weekend with the joe/andy/william/etc. coalition as planned. i'm still not feeling great. as for now it's more important that i get better as much as possible before the agony that is midterms, which are just around the corner, prevails. i really don't regret my decision: it's quite nice staying on campus, chilling with my gdub amigos, etc. i so do not have a penchant for travel. plus, now, i get to go see romeo & juliet downtown tomorrow night for only $10. that's a hell of a lot cheaper than the $139/seat tickets blaine found for us at avenue q!

other than being sick, gdubbs is all right. i'm a lot better off right now than i was one year ago at this time. i'm having a lot of fun right now because i am reconnecting with the people i haven't hung out with since the 1st weekend of school, the last time i actually felt well. still, this year is a wholly different dynamic from the last. some friendships are stronger and others, i hate to say, have diminished. but it's all for the best. i have great friends right now.

i miss college park. pablo is cool and all, but i definitely miss my girls (and kieran too). i've been homesick a lot lately, too. yes, for thousand oaks. i've never been like this before. luckily, mama ross is coming to visit next week. it will be good to see her.

finally, work is going great. i feel more capable than ever before. that plus my political science classes this semester make me feel really confident about being a public policy major.

ok, i'm at farragut west right now, so that means i'm the next stop. i'll try to write more often from now on.

i'll be frank...

days since getting sick: 12.

mom's coming to visit the weekend after next, and if i'm not better by then, i'm going back to california with her.

no questions, please.

third week slump

days since getting sick: 6.

i am writing this post from my blackberry, not my laptop, because my laptop has once again decided to totally crash. fortunately, this time around, all of my files are backed up as of last night. still, i hate having to contend with these issues, especially with chemistry class being in 20 minutes.

i am already completely fed up with this year. i have been sick basically the entire time, the most recent nuisance being a stomach virus that started on wednesday. i can't eat because i'll throw it all up. i can't sleep because my stomach is in constant turmoil. i can't walk because i am too weak from living off this brat diet. i can't concentrate because all i can think about is how terrible i feel.

i hate this. i'm hungry and in pain. i'm sleep-exhausted because after work and class i still have to do homework, but then i get too tired and fall asleep, so i'm behind in all my classes. i'm grumpy and in pain and frustrated over my fucking computer and the fact that i'm still not better and that every guy i meet is a self-serving egotist. i hate how i look and i feel. i hate my classes. i am overworked and underpaid. i never see my friends and i feel so alone. i can't afford to take a day off. i'm wondering when i'll get "used to" things and not mind these constant nuisances in my life. all i want to do is cry.

i can't believe i am forcing myself to go to my goddamn chemistry class now.

live from funger hall!

i'm sitting in my u.s. political participation class right now listening to a debate on whether presidential campaigns matter with regards to the outcome of the election. the student at the podium right now is talking waaaay too fast. i wish someone ― namely the professor, but it could be someone else as well ― would tell him to slow down. i cannot fucking understand one word he is saying. won't his tongue fall off? he goes to the same church as me as well, and he did the same thing last sunday when advertising getting involved at the newman center. anyway, i wonder what he said. it was probably very intelligent. i guess that now, the world will never know.

other classes i am taking this semester:
✓ introduction to international politics
✓ advanced spanish grammar
✓ sociology of law
✓ contemporary science for non-science majors

i like them all, with the exception of the sociology class. i don't think the professor knows what he's doing, but that's the trade-off when you've got an adjunct.

work is good. lcv keeps me busy. i am getting excited for this election.

pablo and i still aren't friends yet. i don't think he likes me very much. at least our room is quite large. even though he has seemingly taken over the coffeetable, that's okay because i got the coat closet... and the kitchen (since pablo doesn't cook).

oh yeah, and i got hit my a car today. actually, it was more like he was "stopped" in the crosswalk while i was trying to cross h street, except he was inching forward, and then he tapped my leg. i'm not hurt or anything, but it just shows how stupid some people are. ugh.

back to the debate, i think i am siding with the team supposing that presidential campaigns don't matter. or maybe it's because they are more eloquent. :)

so begins another year of late nights in gelman

the glove compartment is inaccurately named
and everybody knows it.
so i'm proposing a swift orderly change.

cause behind its door there's nothing to keep my fingers warm
and all i find are souvenirs from better times
before the gleam of your taillights fading east
to find yourself a better life.

i was searching for some legal document
as the rain beat down on the hood
when i stumbled upon pictures i tried to forget
and that's how this idea was drilled into my head

cause it's too important
to stay the way it's been

there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
and now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
lying awake at night

there's no blame for how our love did slowly fade
and now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all
and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide
lying awake at night (up all night)
when i'm lying awake at night.