i'm back from california and have moved into my dorm at gwu. it's really nice. there is plenty of space for both pablo and myself. he's a bit on the quiet side, though. i am hoping that will change.
i can see the washington monument out of my east-facing windows, though. :)
it's great to be living back at gwu again. even though i lived in college park this summer and even worked in farragut square, everything still feels fresh and exciting here in foggy bottom. it makes me think more and more about doing the "four years in college" thing and taking a lot of electives. (otherwise, i'd graduate in 3 thanks to advanced placement and community college.)
that's it for now.
31 August 2008
25 August 2008
back in california for a bit
peeps i have hung out with since getting back to california:
✓ irina li
✓ amanda packard
✓ adam potischman
✓ allan steiner
✓ melissa steiner
✓ linda langlois
definitely the most random group of people but apparently these are the people i still keep in contact with. it's funny how these things turn out. i'm also meeting lilyrybak sherman and marissa podell for coffee tomorrow. sadly, i won't be able to make it to bryan aka lord byron aka washington irving aka michael ross aka broth's 20th (!!!) birthday thing on wednesday. there's never enough time in california.
that being said, i'm actually having a better time here than i usually do. it's given me a lot of time to decompress and not think about you know who. i still miss him, but it's great being around my family. and i had some great talks with my friends about my situation ― they've helped me realize that this summer, in its entirety, has been a learning experience for me, from learning about the political scene and how to act professional to living on my own and the subject of romance. so i guess it's nice that this week has been able to give me some perspective on the rest of my summer/life.
however, i've realized that there are some things i want to do when i get back to washington. these include: (and you are more than welcome to join me, in fact i'd love it)
it's not even 11 yet, but i'm still on east coast time, so i need to go to bed.
✓ irina li
✓ amanda packard
✓ adam potischman
✓ allan steiner
✓ melissa steiner
✓ linda langlois
definitely the most random group of people but apparently these are the people i still keep in contact with. it's funny how these things turn out. i'm also meeting lily
that being said, i'm actually having a better time here than i usually do. it's given me a lot of time to decompress and not think about you know who. i still miss him, but it's great being around my family. and i had some great talks with my friends about my situation ― they've helped me realize that this summer, in its entirety, has been a learning experience for me, from learning about the political scene and how to act professional to living on my own and the subject of romance. so i guess it's nice that this week has been able to give me some perspective on the rest of my summer/life.
however, i've realized that there are some things i want to do when i get back to washington. these include: (and you are more than welcome to join me, in fact i'd love it)
- going to a few baseball games
- taking a class at a dance studio
- finding a shooting gallery
- reading fear and loathing in las vegas
- visiting other east coast cities
- working out more
- registering as a member of apsa (has anyone else done this?
it's not even 11 yet, but i'm still on east coast time, so i need to go to bed.
21 August 2008
the sun is up, it shines on you, it's beautiful and so are you
i'm looking out the window noticing the first iota of daylight breaking through the blackness. and yet i am still not asleep. i really did mean to ― after all, i'm flying to california in a couple of hours ― but life happened instead.
first i went out to dinner with joe after work, which was okay except he made a few comments about me which hurt my feelings but i didn't vocalize that, then i turned around and made a similar comment which he flipped out about. i was half-temped to walk out of the restaurant right then and there but instead i just apologized and then we moved on. whatever. then i get home and omg, somebody should have told me that there was a party going on in apartment 410 tonight because it was HOPPIN'!!! drea was there along with josh dunietz as well as josh dunietz's new girlfriend, who is fabulous and i totally approve of, and we definitely had a bangin' time, supplemented by a trip to d.p. dough's. the old-enoughs never quite made it to the bar, because before we knew it, it was 2 am and everyone was exhausted. so josh dunietz and the g/f went home, then drea and i had an espn-esque post-hangout discussion which quickly turned into me recounting my entire love life from 2004 to the present. life. so then drea left, and of course i still hadn't packed, so i just decided to stay up all night instead. got sucked into a few aim conversations with some california friends i'm dying to see, blah blah blah, so here we are now, i'm about to catch the metro to greenbelt and take the b30 bus from there to bwi (a.k.a. bothersome while inexpensive). going to arrive at lax at 11:45 their time. good stuff.
moral of the story: if you're around, i'm around, so let's be around... each other! :)
first i went out to dinner with joe after work, which was okay except he made a few comments about me which hurt my feelings but i didn't vocalize that, then i turned around and made a similar comment which he flipped out about. i was half-temped to walk out of the restaurant right then and there but instead i just apologized and then we moved on. whatever. then i get home and omg, somebody should have told me that there was a party going on in apartment 410 tonight because it was HOPPIN'!!! drea was there along with josh dunietz as well as josh dunietz's new girlfriend, who is fabulous and i totally approve of, and we definitely had a bangin' time, supplemented by a trip to d.p. dough's. the old-enoughs never quite made it to the bar, because before we knew it, it was 2 am and everyone was exhausted. so josh dunietz and the g/f went home, then drea and i had an espn-esque post-hangout discussion which quickly turned into me recounting my entire love life from 2004 to the present. life. so then drea left, and of course i still hadn't packed, so i just decided to stay up all night instead. got sucked into a few aim conversations with some california friends i'm dying to see, blah blah blah, so here we are now, i'm about to catch the metro to greenbelt and take the b30 bus from there to bwi (a.k.a. bothersome while inexpensive). going to arrive at lax at 11:45 their time. good stuff.
moral of the story: if you're around, i'm around, so let's be around... each other! :)
18 August 2008
hey there delilah, what's it like in new york city?
most of you who regularly read this blog have played the unfortunate witness to the ongoing drama that is phil's and my relationship, and re-reading the last several entries of this blog i have realized that a central part that he (along with the emotions of mine that his actions seem to spur) is in my life. for those of you who don't know, phil is a great (and i do say great) guy who i have been friends with, dated, hooked up, combinations of those, all three at once, and none of those at various points within the last 9 months. to that end, i am vowing to make this the last entry in which i talk about phil.
it all comes back to new york. joe and i took a spontaneous day trip there yesterday, and, while it was loads of fun (we shopped, walked around, and had dinner at a nice restaurant), i still found myself dwelling on phil (who went to high school in nyc). i think i still like him, and i do find myself wishing that he were mine. it's like that beatles lyric, "well i'd rather see you dead, little girl, than to be with another man." that song always makes me think of him (though phil is far from a "little girl," lol).
so i had a looong talk with him today, and i'll spare you the details, but in the end, i told him that while he's a catch and i really do want to be friends with him... until i can find a way to leave my emotions behind me, i can't. and since one of my biggest character flaws is my tendency to dwell on the past, i don't think this is going to be for a while. so, i told him not to contact me until i contact him. he was incredibly understanding, he wished me well, and he said he looked forward to talking to me again in the future.
and that's that.
there is a prayer, called the serenity prayer, that goes like this: "god, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference. " the fact that he and i will never be together is something that i cannot change, but i can change how i deal with that. only now, though, do i truly have the wisdom to recognize both of those things. honestly, this is one of the hardest things i have had to do. i have cried a lot this week because i knew this was coming, and today, of course, did not permit the tears to relent.
but in the end, it is the mature thing to do. i am investing in my future. maybe now, i can move on. you may say that it will happen, but honestly i don't know if it's possible. i'm willing to try, though. if tila tequila can take a shot at love, so can i.
by and large, this summer was not the best. my apartment sucks, i never quite made it to philly or boston, and i didn't get to see my friends nearly as much as i'd hoped. but it was an investment in my future. my internship will help me get a better job later on, my class will allow me to graduate in may 2010, and i have the experience on living on my own for future knowledge. i write this knowing what a strech it is for me to have to justify all this as such. but it's true. this will all help me one day. this is the path i've chosen, and it will take me to where the lord has determined that i need to be later in life. until i get there, however, i will be morose. and that's how i feel about this whole phil situation. morose. but, it will provide me with what i will need down the road in my (love) life.
and, with that, i lay the demons of my past to rest, as i anticipate the future. who knows, maybe phil and i will one day find a way to be friends. this is very similar to what happened between adam and i in high school, and it is now just as it is then: what i need is time.
(i apologize for the overly emotional nature of this entry, by the way. it just needed to be said.)
it all comes back to new york. joe and i took a spontaneous day trip there yesterday, and, while it was loads of fun (we shopped, walked around, and had dinner at a nice restaurant), i still found myself dwelling on phil (who went to high school in nyc). i think i still like him, and i do find myself wishing that he were mine. it's like that beatles lyric, "well i'd rather see you dead, little girl, than to be with another man." that song always makes me think of him (though phil is far from a "little girl," lol).
so i had a looong talk with him today, and i'll spare you the details, but in the end, i told him that while he's a catch and i really do want to be friends with him... until i can find a way to leave my emotions behind me, i can't. and since one of my biggest character flaws is my tendency to dwell on the past, i don't think this is going to be for a while. so, i told him not to contact me until i contact him. he was incredibly understanding, he wished me well, and he said he looked forward to talking to me again in the future.
and that's that.
there is a prayer, called the serenity prayer, that goes like this: "god, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, and the wisdom to know the difference. " the fact that he and i will never be together is something that i cannot change, but i can change how i deal with that. only now, though, do i truly have the wisdom to recognize both of those things. honestly, this is one of the hardest things i have had to do. i have cried a lot this week because i knew this was coming, and today, of course, did not permit the tears to relent.
but in the end, it is the mature thing to do. i am investing in my future. maybe now, i can move on. you may say that it will happen, but honestly i don't know if it's possible. i'm willing to try, though. if tila tequila can take a shot at love, so can i.
by and large, this summer was not the best. my apartment sucks, i never quite made it to philly or boston, and i didn't get to see my friends nearly as much as i'd hoped. but it was an investment in my future. my internship will help me get a better job later on, my class will allow me to graduate in may 2010, and i have the experience on living on my own for future knowledge. i write this knowing what a strech it is for me to have to justify all this as such. but it's true. this will all help me one day. this is the path i've chosen, and it will take me to where the lord has determined that i need to be later in life. until i get there, however, i will be morose. and that's how i feel about this whole phil situation. morose. but, it will provide me with what i will need down the road in my (love) life.
and, with that, i lay the demons of my past to rest, as i anticipate the future. who knows, maybe phil and i will one day find a way to be friends. this is very similar to what happened between adam and i in high school, and it is now just as it is then: what i need is time.
(i apologize for the overly emotional nature of this entry, by the way. it just needed to be said.)
12 August 2008
the facebook stalkerfeed gave me quite a shock today...
bryan transferred out of gwu. i'm sure most of you know by now, but it's true. the long story short is that his coach (varsity tennis) was being a total dick, as always, even though it was his fault in the first place that bryan is injured and unable to play. not only that, but needing surgery. so as a last-minute deal, bryan transferred to saint louis university. at least he is now at a school that appreciates his abilities, and he is closer to the bulk of his family.
of course, that leaves me without a roommate... er, not really. gw took the liberty of plopping some kid named pablo -- a transfer student, i reckon -- in with me in my penthouse suite. i have a bad feeling about all this. i don't know anything about this guy. he could be a total dick for all i know. a crack addict, a homophobe. i haven't even talked to him, even on facebook, but my stomach is giving me an unsettling feeling about this entire situation.
oh, don't sell me short quite yet. i sent him an e-mail a couple hours ago extending the olive branch. of course, if he's anything like trevor (or any new student at gw, for that matter), he won't know how to use his gw mail until after he gets to school. kieran tried showing me how to use our new e-mail system. i gave up after about 2 minutes and decided to continue letting everything automatically be forwarded to my gmail.
back in the affairs of the apartment du jour, maintenance still hasn't come to resolve toilet fiasco 2008. kieran and i must have drawn the short stick in terms of choosing bathrooms. i can't wait until next week when our sink will overflow or my medicine cabinet will fall on my head and crack open my skull.
oh, and we apparently have a mouse (multiple mice?) living in our apartment. good god, which circle of hell have i signed a lease for?
just a few weeks left of summer. the final for my summer school class is on thursday, then one week from then i'm going to southern california. i've decided i'm looking forward more to that than to school starting. especially now that bryan's left. the funny thing is that last time i was in california, i told my closest friends about phil and asked them if i should pursue a romantic relationship with him. now, an entire summer has past, he and i have fought, semi-made up, i've realized that i still have feelings for him and now i am trying to put him in my past again. i wonder how i will explain this all to my friends. (i guess in the same way i did just now.)
but i digress. i've been on a few dates lately. nothing to speak of. meh, it's just as well. i have work in the morning.
of course, that leaves me without a roommate... er, not really. gw took the liberty of plopping some kid named pablo -- a transfer student, i reckon -- in with me in my penthouse suite. i have a bad feeling about all this. i don't know anything about this guy. he could be a total dick for all i know. a crack addict, a homophobe. i haven't even talked to him, even on facebook, but my stomach is giving me an unsettling feeling about this entire situation.
oh, don't sell me short quite yet. i sent him an e-mail a couple hours ago extending the olive branch. of course, if he's anything like trevor (or any new student at gw, for that matter), he won't know how to use his gw mail until after he gets to school. kieran tried showing me how to use our new e-mail system. i gave up after about 2 minutes and decided to continue letting everything automatically be forwarded to my gmail.
back in the affairs of the apartment du jour, maintenance still hasn't come to resolve toilet fiasco 2008. kieran and i must have drawn the short stick in terms of choosing bathrooms. i can't wait until next week when our sink will overflow or my medicine cabinet will fall on my head and crack open my skull.
oh, and we apparently have a mouse (multiple mice?) living in our apartment. good god, which circle of hell have i signed a lease for?
just a few weeks left of summer. the final for my summer school class is on thursday, then one week from then i'm going to southern california. i've decided i'm looking forward more to that than to school starting. especially now that bryan's left. the funny thing is that last time i was in california, i told my closest friends about phil and asked them if i should pursue a romantic relationship with him. now, an entire summer has past, he and i have fought, semi-made up, i've realized that i still have feelings for him and now i am trying to put him in my past again. i wonder how i will explain this all to my friends. (i guess in the same way i did just now.)
but i digress. i've been on a few dates lately. nothing to speak of. meh, it's just as well. i have work in the morning.
10 August 2008
musings on a lonely sunday morning
is it all the men i meet who are assholes? or is it just me?
god bless blaine butler for driving joe and i to olive garden later today.
god bless blaine butler for driving joe and i to olive garden later today.
09 August 2008
you know you live in prince george's county when you're willing to do this
in the pinnacle of ghettoness in terms of my apartment, the chain in my toilet which provides the flushing mechanism broke off. in other words, we can't flush. and it doesn't help that kieran and i BOTH forgot about this so our bathroom started to smell like... well, you know what. so at the apex of my desperation, i wrapped my bony arm in plastic bags, reached into my toilet, and manually flushed it.
UGHHHHH.
yes, maintenence is coming tomorrow to fix my toilet. but i was getting desperate. our bathroom was starting to smell terrible, and besides, i'm a go-getter. anyway, i think this is enough of a favor to make kieran my personal bitch for the next month or so.
in other, less disgusting news, it has been a week since the other development intern has left lcv to go study abroad in españa, and i think i'm doing well without her. it's a lot of work, trying to do 2 people's jobs at once, but my renewed faith in myself and my job ― supplemented by elizabeth (the head of the dept.)'s renewing my internship through the election ― has provided me with the strength and the determination to do an even better job at work than i did before. i am actually quite thankful to be at lcv through november 27 ― it will be exciting to be a member of lcv WHEN (not if) obama gets elected. :)
another benefit about continuing to work at lcv: our departmental retreat!!! those whack-jobs in communications went kayaking down the potomac. luckily, we don't have to do that.
elizabeth: "our department consists of women and michael. we're going to get our nails done." :)
so, does anyone know any quality but mid-priced nail salons in washington???
oh, and i realized i'm going to california in a week and a half. yay...i think? traveling is such a pain, but truth be told i'm looking forward to seeing the rents and el jefe, even though it's only for a little bit (which might actually be more virtuous, ha ha).
my final exam for biological anthropology is on thursday... good lord. i should probably study but i'm on blogger instead.
also, i continue to impress myself with my not ever going out of town. woo.
pics from the summer, especially fredericksburg, to be posted EVENTUALLY... heh.
that's it for now.
UGHHHHH.
yes, maintenence is coming tomorrow to fix my toilet. but i was getting desperate. our bathroom was starting to smell terrible, and besides, i'm a go-getter. anyway, i think this is enough of a favor to make kieran my personal bitch for the next month or so.
in other, less disgusting news, it has been a week since the other development intern has left lcv to go study abroad in españa, and i think i'm doing well without her. it's a lot of work, trying to do 2 people's jobs at once, but my renewed faith in myself and my job ― supplemented by elizabeth (the head of the dept.)'s renewing my internship through the election ― has provided me with the strength and the determination to do an even better job at work than i did before. i am actually quite thankful to be at lcv through november 27 ― it will be exciting to be a member of lcv WHEN (not if) obama gets elected. :)
another benefit about continuing to work at lcv: our departmental retreat!!! those whack-jobs in communications went kayaking down the potomac. luckily, we don't have to do that.
elizabeth: "our department consists of women and michael. we're going to get our nails done." :)
so, does anyone know any quality but mid-priced nail salons in washington???
oh, and i realized i'm going to california in a week and a half. yay...i think? traveling is such a pain, but truth be told i'm looking forward to seeing the rents and el jefe, even though it's only for a little bit (which might actually be more virtuous, ha ha).
my final exam for biological anthropology is on thursday... good lord. i should probably study but i'm on blogger instead.
also, i continue to impress myself with my not ever going out of town. woo.
pics from the summer, especially fredericksburg, to be posted EVENTUALLY... heh.
that's it for now.
05 August 2008
ojalá...
i just want you close
where you can stay forever
you can be sure
that it will only get better
you and me together
through the days and nights
i don't worry 'cause
everything's going to be alright
people keep talking they can say what they like
but all i know is everything's going to be alright
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i'm feeling
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i feel for you, you, you
can get in the way of what i feel for you
when the rain is pouring down
and my heart is hurting
you will always be around
this i know for certain
you and me together
through the days and nights
i don't worry 'cause
everything's going to be alright
people keep talking they can say what they like
but all i know is everything's going to be alright
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i'm feeling
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i feel for you, you, you
can get in the way of what i feel
i know some people search the world
to find something like what we have
i know people will try try to divide something so real
so till the end of time i'm telling you there ain't no one
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i'm feeling
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i feel for you, you, you
can get in the way of what i feel for you
where you can stay forever
you can be sure
that it will only get better
you and me together
through the days and nights
i don't worry 'cause
everything's going to be alright
people keep talking they can say what they like
but all i know is everything's going to be alright
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i'm feeling
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i feel for you, you, you
can get in the way of what i feel for you
when the rain is pouring down
and my heart is hurting
you will always be around
this i know for certain
you and me together
through the days and nights
i don't worry 'cause
everything's going to be alright
people keep talking they can say what they like
but all i know is everything's going to be alright
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i'm feeling
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i feel for you, you, you
can get in the way of what i feel
i know some people search the world
to find something like what we have
i know people will try try to divide something so real
so till the end of time i'm telling you there ain't no one
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i'm feeling
no one, no one, no one
can get in the way of what i feel for you, you, you
can get in the way of what i feel for you
01 August 2008
second to worst blog ever
somehow, rosie o'donnell slipped my mind when i was writing my july 28 post.
also: STAPES!!! stop BUYING things for alvin!!!
also: STAPES!!! stop BUYING things for alvin!!!
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