utah!!!!!!

i'm leaving thousand oaks tomorrow for san francisco, and from there i'm going directly back to washington. i didn't finish the book i'm reading. i'm scarcely 200 words into the story i'm writing. i'm still my usual shade of pale white. indeed, this trip was an epic failure.

on the other hand, i DID sit around and mess around on the internet a lot. when i get bored, i tend to search for things that i won't need until later in life: a job, an apartment, etc. i found a really awesome looking job w/ the aclu in salt lake city. it would be right up my alley. i found an awesome looking apartment in slc, too. i did some research and it's surprisingly gay-friendly there... wtf? anyway, that doesn't matter because my weekends will be consumed not by gay clubbing, but rather by babysitting amanda packard's 20 kids.

of course, i'm speaking too soon. my internship hasn't even officially started yet... people keep on asking me if i'm nervous, but in truth, i can't WAIT for tuesday!!

my town is the only town in america dumb enough to have a horse crossing (janss road at paige lane ftw!)

dear high school friends... part ii

dear friends of mine from high school,

okay, i get that washington dc was a little far for you to come visit me so that we could hang out. but now i am home in thousand oaks and i still can't get into contact with any of you for some hanging out time. i respect that you all are busy, but i'm only here until may 23, so all i can say is this: wtf?

kthxbye.

love,
michael

p.s. thank fucking god i'm only here for 2 weeks.

my 10 to 1 for freshman year

10 things you hated about this year
10 | taking psychology instead of geography
09 | taking math instead of logic
08 | taking linguistics instead of spanish
07 | 8am classes (fall semester only)
06 | class until 5pm on fridays (spring semester only)
05 | being stuck in mitchell for the first month
04 | kelly transferring to kutztown
03 | the "fruit loop" (a.k.a. the queer-as-folk bitches of gw's class of 2011)
02 | j street
01 | marshak's departure :(

9 things you liked about this year
09 | I GET TO LIVE ON MY OWN!!!
08 | washington, dc: the smithsonian, the mall, the metro...
07 | living in thurston, despite its similarities to a 3rd world country
06 | parties at phi sigma kappa
05 | my random trips to u. maryland and going to their parties
04 | SNOW
03 | meeting locals and other area college students
02 | meeting people from places i'd never dream of meeting people from
01 | meeting my new best friends :)

8 things you can't stop laughing about
08 | yvette and her bou-isms
07 | joanna and amanda's sexual urges
06 | peter's scream, when he get offended
05 | "mad", "obvi", "hella", and of course "hella mad obvi"
04 | my band's name in rock band: c's get degrees!
03 | my anti-gw breakfast special at j street: bacon with a side of bacon
02 | "only 25 more blocks to go!"
01 | i went to adam's hometown, stayed at adam's friend's house, hung out with adam's friends and adam's brother, saw adam's old high school, saw the coffeehouse where adam used to work... all without adam

7 memories that you'll cherish forever
07 | protest against the war in iraq
06 | walk for aids awareness
05 | walking for the juvenile diabetes research foundation
04 | the moment i realized that i am far more independent and capable than many of my classmates
03 | philadelphia
02 | raleigh
01 | how i met patricia chaupis... go on, ask her how we met.

6 regrets you have for the past year
06 | fighting with sarah marshak
05 | not going home fall semester at all
04 | spending so much money eating out at restaurants
03 | letting allied in pride become the bane of my social existence
02 | not moving to thurston sooner
01 | almost transferring (thankfully, i didn't)

5 things you learned this year
05 | NOTHING (in the classroom setting, that is)
04 | how to make awesome coffee/espresso drinks
03 | get involved in campus activities!
02 | gw's not so bad; you've just got to find your niche.
01 | some boys are simply not to be trusted!

4 habits you picked up this year
04 | jumping onto the top bunk of bunkbeds without a ladder
03 | ignoring the sounds of a loud residence hall when i want to go to sleep
02 | sleeping on the floor: pammy's, monica's, yvette's, mine...
01 | walking around in public in my pajamas
(hmm, all of these have to do with bedtime...)

3 of your best friends
03 | pammy (a.k.a. patricia chaupis)
02 | joanna
01 | peter

2 things you'll avoid next year
02 | j street
01 | spending so much money on restaurants (which will be easier now that i'll have a kitchen)

1 thing that makes this year so memorable
01 | "college! no parents!"

"but it's a dry heat"

i feel kind of bad that the fact that today was mother's day didn't really resonate in my mind. it also hasn't hit me that my birthday is just around the corner; i'm just trying to reel in the fact that i'm back in california for the 1st time since february.

it's nice, i guess. my bedroom seems really large. i don't really feel at home here, though.

i think i made the right decision about staying in dc this summer. even though humidity in a suit might just shrivel all of my 135 pounds up.

i can't even look in the mirror because i hate what i see so much. (we were looking at photo albums at grandma's house today and i wanted to cry so bad.)

the good news is that my cheeks are a little rosy from being in the sun today. :)

last night of freshman year

i don't know what to say about my freshman year. eventful. unique. rainy.

i should be going up to justin's party right now but instead i'm sitting in my room, alone, on my last night in thurston hall. i don't know how to feel right now. i just got back from moving all of my belongings up to my apartment in college park. i guess i'm pretty happy with my decision to stay here over the summer. i mean, i don't know what i'd do if i went home for 3 ½ months. and a lot of people have pledged to come visit me: linda, gina, allan, jeffrey, mom, uncle danny & aunt seal, so i guess i'll get my "fill" of californians. lol. but more so than anything else, i think i'm just sad that most of my new friends are going back to their hometowns, and i'm not. then again, they're all from new jersey; i'm from california, and california's a lot farther than jersey.

maybe i'll feel a lot better once i'm back in thousand oaks and realize how boring it is. but i digress. i don't even know how to regard the last year of my life. so much has happened. i've learned so much about myself and about others. maybe i'll spend some time reflecting on this year during my time in california; hopefully i'll post a 10 to 1 for my freshman year soon.

anyway, thank you to all of my new friends on the east coast for making this year so memorable. you'll never know how much your companionship truly meant to me. thank you so much.

all right, time to see what this party in justin's room is all about.